I have recently felt that life would easier if my spirit could somehow go back to sleep and not think about this mean and wild Jesus that I follow. I have loved, for years now, following this nice, loving and graceful Jesus that most churches market these days. While these are true characteristics of Jesus, I have come to realize that he is more than that. I have misconstrued his love – and almost sensationalized Him – if I don’t fear him at the same time.
You see, Jesus wants to make all unclean things clean in my life – the unholy, holy. He wants to destroy all of my notions, habits, sins, addictions and self justifying attitude that I think I cannot live without. There are times that I think Jesus is out to destroy me. This space is a scary and wonderful place to walk in all at the same time. Jesus “torments” me in order to refine my character to be set apart for godliness and to set apart my calling in order to be used for His purpose. So my realization is while Jesus is Gracious he is also Justice.
